Dear Vera and JJ,
Mummy is now 33 weeks pregnant. Walking around and going on bus-rides with you guys in tow is starting to be a laborious and somewhat hair-raising affair.
But thankfully, on most days, we receive the help of kind strangers who give up their seats for you guys, and we’ve managed to enjoy most of our gallivanting without too much ado.
I’m still quite determined to hang out with you both on my days off. Seeing the both of you have fun at the pool or playing with your friends at the playground or heartily tucking into our mid-day snack (which on good days consists of something chocolaty) makes my day.
I’m kinda thinking ahead and already feeling a sense of loss for such days. And am wondering how we are gonna cope after baby Joshua’s arrival, and when I will be able to take you out alone again.
It’ll be tough at the start, and I need to find out from other mummies how they do it. But though I may not be hanging out with you kids outside as much and have to do boob duty for most part of the day, please know that I am always loving you, and will still be around to play / mediate quarrels / comfort / pray okay?
I promise not to hide behind my phone when you come traipsing down the hallway, excited to share with me your news of the day.
I promise to let go of my need to write, vent and express through my blog, and to give you more one-on-one time wherever I can.
I promise to involve you both in the caring and loving of Joshua. Because we are one family, and we’ll all in this together.
Meanwhile, I am amazed at how the both of you have grown. (Just look at this 1 year ago photo I dug up.)
Vera, you’re so grown up now, and JJ, you’re no longer the little baby I once knew.
You both have your own little minds about how the world should work, and about when you get to eat your favourite things like ice-cream (ideally every day of course…)
Time is racing speedily by, and I realise you won’t remain so little for very long. I count these moments precious…before the whirlwind of change hits us.
So, I am thankful.
Thankful that I can still keep up with you guys.
Thankful that daddy and I can still find the time to go for couple pilates classes (at Pilates Fitness) on the weekends.
Thankful that baby Joshua is well and extremely active in the womb. (Sometimes I fear that he’s gonna kick himself outta there somehow. I know…crazy paranoid preggie mum talking.)
Thankful that whatever storms come our way, we know we will go sailing home safe and sound. Because we know that Jesus is in the boat, and he calms all our storms…Right guys?
Love you always and always,
Even when it’s tough.